The reflection that I am less than I might have been.
The fear of missing out.
Desperate grasping. The longing. The search. Trying to be satisfied, to end the emptiness.
Looking for the next experience. The next insight. The next deepening in the relationship. The next spiritual teaching that would be IT.
This is my hungry ghost.
Hungry ghost is a concept in Chinese Buddhism and Chinese traditional religion representing beings who are driven by intense emotional needs in an animalistic way. The term appears in Tantra to reflect moments in which we display those intense emotional needs and pursue them. The mind believes that a desire exists to be satisfied. Not achieving satisfaction leads to suffering for the moments we are hungry ghosts. Dr Gabor Mate, an expert in addictions, describes them as “The Realm of the Hungry Ghost” in his book of the same title.
The cure to existential loneliness? The beautiful glorious inner void. The next experience? Watching all emanate from the creative force. Longing that can’t be filled? Returning to the sense of presence.
It sounds like hocus pocus. It sounds like more spiritual double talk. It sounds like BS. I know. To the Hungry ghost, it is.
If you ask who you truly are, and if you settle into your own nothingness, this all becomes self evident truth. It all stops for a delicious moment of peace and freedom.