“Oh, you hate your job? Why didn’t you say so? There’s a support group for that. It’s called everybody, and they meet at the bar. ” Drew Carey
Generally, I love what I do. I specialize in improving organizational performance and I teach systems approaches to business problems. Cool, right?
A few years ago, I left a role because the business I was working with were making decisions that I didn’t agree with, and I could not implement these decisions without hurting every time I acted against my values as a leader.
For a year and a half, I have been engaged and satisfied in my new role. But not now. I am being asked to implement decisions that I struggle with again. My engagement has dropped. I feel anxiety and I am getting sick.
But, I recognize that when a pattern like this shows up, it is about what I can learn. It is a pointer towards my spiritual awakening.
Since the last time I faced this, I have learned that circumstances do not control my experience. That knowledge alone, however, was not enough to move past this.
Today, I had an event remind me of an essential truth: when I look at a situation with an expectation of how it should be, I have limited my availability to life to only one option – whatever expectation or belief I have. It means I cannot be available to what is. And it means I will be unhappy. In the Tantrik tradition, it means I am confused by illusion.
When I let go of my belief about how something should be different than it is, I can breathe. I can let go. I can be open. I can be with Truth.
So now, let’s be with what is.