Kaboom! Mercury in Retrograde

It comes in threes right? But maybe when Mercury is in retrograde, it just comes. 

“As the planet of communication, Mercury retrograde tends to breed a certain level of confusion. Mercury rules our “lower” mind–how we perceive and interpret information that we receive from our environment, and how we relay that information to others. Mercury has rulership over such things as speaking, negotiating, buying and selling, listening, formal contracts, documents, travel, the mail and shipping, and so forth. All of these areas of life are affected when Mercury is functioning in a sluggish state. Decision-making is challenged during Mercury retrograde. Needless to say, it is not advised to sign contracts, engage in important decision-making, or launch a new business. Delays and challenges are more probable with Mercury retrograde. It’s a time when being careless with money, our personal information, or paperwork can be costly.” This Week in Astrology

A blizzard hit Christmas Day. My SUV got stuck in a snowdrift. The dogs are peeing in my hosts’ home. The dogs’ cage was broken accidentally. The movie tickets I pre-purchase wouldn’t print so I had a long line to solve this with 5 kids in tow. I was charged for a hotel room I forgot to cancel. Today my car battery is dead and will need to be replaced before we begin our next trek. 

A part of me wanted to  figure out all the ways I could have prevented any of these things or avoid them in the future. Good old ego, trying to control circumstances. 

In comes awareness. Breathe and accept what is. Cry. Cocoon. Surrender. 

Then, keep moving. The retrograde is a time to reflect and reorganize. I have bought a planner. I am sketching. I am meditating. It will be ok. 

My brother commented that nothing is easy for me. I suppose that’s true but I don’t see it that way. I can’t control circumstances yet with every occurrence, I keep moving. Surrendering becomes easier. Awareness comes in faster.

As the saying goes, in the end everything will be ok. And if it’s not ok, it’s not the end yet. 

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Enough

Mercury is in retrograde. 

The retrograde was January 5 to January 25. As much as I argue that I see astrology, numerology and other forms of forecasting as crutches to the ego, I can’t deny seeing patterns in them that apply.

“Astrologically, each planet in the sky exerts a unique influence on us, and the world we live in. The planet Mercury rules our intelligence, mind, memory and all types of communication ranging from talking and texting to writing. It also affects our self-expression and communication style. In a more public sense, it rules commerce, computers, telephones, transportation and air travel.” Elephant Journal

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I knew we were in retrograde. I have been through several before and I grudgingly recognize they effect my life.  During this retrograde,  I have watched many things in my life set back.  My finances are messy. I had problems with my mortgage. I watched relationships fall apart around me. Business issues that should have been easy to implement did not move.

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“You may be asking: “What is the purpose of Mercury retrograde?” Well, sometimes, in order to move forward you need to move backward. This gives you the opportunity to rethink your actions and even “fix what might be broken.” By doing this, when you do move forward, you will produce even better results.” Elephant Journal

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What did I learn? My spiritual partner and I were talking about abundance and prosperity. “I read that the opposite of scarcity consciousness is not abundance,  but Enough.” Enough.

I have abundance, and I was reminded about just how much on my birthday. Friend after friend contacted me with birthday wishes. By 10:00 am I had to recharge my phone from all the interactions I had with people. I went to a sensory deprivation tank for a float. I had a loving and laughter filled birthday dinner. My baby and I had a mother-daughter day. I received fabulous gifts.  And for all of this, I had enough.

For all that is, I am enough.

No word has had as much power on me as the word Enough. Not the word love. Not the word hope.

I am Enough. I have Enough.

And so it is.

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